Update: I think I should come with a warning sign.
I’m going off the grid for a bit. you’ll probably see me floating. if you need me text, email, whatever. stay up. stay grinding. +LYDOBV+
i’m on a spiritual journey & it’s unlike any other road i’ve ever traveled. lately i’m realizing a lot of things abt myself that need fine tuning. i want to have healthy relationships … i want to be inspired … i want to freely explore the inner workings of this crazy mind of mine. i’m trying new things that i never considered … borderline starting over , hurting feelings , being selfish (& learning how to not feel guilty abt my selfishness as it is a means of learning how to be more selfless), listening & not speaking , stepping outside of my comfort zone, being completely honest. meditating. mastering this unknown road on my own & figuring out why it’s so important for me to maintain my singularity … stripping myself to the core.
nothing makes sense right now. i don’t know how to share everything that is happening inside of me without sounding cliche. it’s not that big of a deal, rather something we all strive for. self-awareness. or some sort of self-awareness, as we are never fully complete since life is a neverending journey, but … here i go, finally putting the work & study into what i think will be a spiritual awakening for my amazingly complicated soul. no cutting corners, no excuses. wish me luck ."
for my DAW 1 Class we had to take a 40’s play, record it, and then edit it. this my version.
one of my favorite people in the world (Lesedi Lo-Fi) put a new vid up on the tube today + let’s just say I’ve listened to it a dozen times because he’s just so talented I can’t take it + I mean, look at that band aid on his nose…cool kat right?
he’s raising money so that he can bless us with more of this. shoot him $1?
my pick me up song :)
woke up feeling like…
i always feel empty
when things end
It leaves me thinking
of what is next,
whether it’s going to be
good or bad,
whether it will
give me some satisfaction
or leave me nostalgic
for those greater days.
I don’t want this to end,
I want it to
side boob appreciation post…I’m also still sick…fuck.
I love the lingering smell of beer and kush on your skin
and how your eyes are always so low-
not because you’re high,
but because you’re blind as fuck
and still aware of my subtle advances.
I love how we ever so obviously sneak glances,
knowing the other one sees,
but we never say a thing.
I wanna take a chance with you.
I want a thousand chances after that.
I want the romance, the fights, all of that.
But baby, you’re moving molasses slow
and I have a habit of constantly moving forward
because my heart so cold.
Give me one hour, good music, and you alone.
I swear that when my time is up
I’d be able to call you my own.
i’m sick. fuck. pretty sure I got it from some sick nasty kid at work yesters days. i didn’t go to school. fuck. this is the first day I ever missed. LOZRS is tonight. I’d be dammed if this stopped me from doing tonight’s show.